恋上一个人

原来发现自己已经不知觉地喜欢上一个人, 却又不知怎么对他说是件很痛苦的事。
当感觉到他其实心里没有自己时更难过.

小丑也有累的一天。。

当小丑选择嬉皮笑脸的那一刻开始，就已经失去做真正自己的权利。。

因为身边的人也已习惯拿他来开玩笑捉弄， 所以他没权利生气或发脾气。。

生气了，发脾气了都是他自己的错。。

累了。。 真的累了。。 

I will try...

This is exactly what I had gone thru recently.. Kept hearing people telling mi this almost everyday and it literally got on my nerves... I became a bit more vocal and nasty on facebook.. I got emotional.. I dun feel like talking to anyone who knows about his existence before anymore as it just felt like they are only more interested in mi and him... No one seems to understand the meaning of "we are just friends"..

I will try, ok.. I will sort out my feelings and see where does he really stand in my heart.. I hope it won't take long, but please give mi time and space to breathe...

A name for my future her

With this job at Siemens, I got to know quite a few colleagues hailing from Europe and some has nice unique names, or rather names that were not so common among the locals here which trends each season..

And, as such I had decided on the name for my future princess if the day comes..

= Tatiana (tah-tee-arh-nah), she shall be named and can be referred to as "Tata" for short

A quick check on the web show that it originated from Slovakia and meant Fairy Queen.. Indeed, it suits the Tatiana I now know.. :) And my future daughter shall be same as well..

曖昧

曖昧是　比好朋友再親一點　但比情人遠一點
曖昧是　有進一步的衝動　卻沒有進一步的勇氣
曖昧是　他不是你的情人　但似乎他比情人更瞭解你
曖昧是　雖然他不是你的情人　但他對你十分重要
曖昧是　會叫你蓋好被子　早點睡的普通朋友
曖昧是　甜蜜蜜又酸溜溜的　往往從未開始就讓人患得患失
曖昧是　別人以為你們在搞地下情　你會沾沾自喜
曖昧是　別人問你們是否戀愛中　你張口結舌
曖昧是　見到他你會心跳加速　見不到他時你會掛念他
曖昧是　兩個人都會互相猜想　我是不是自作多情？
曖昧是　你很想多走一步　但又怕會嚇跑他
曖昧是　兩個人沒有承諾過什麼　卻願意付出不求回報
曖昧是　写到這裡　心裡想到的　那個人