I will try...

This is exactly what I had gone thru recently.. Kept hearing people telling mi this almost everyday and it literally got on my nerves... I became a bit more vocal and nasty on facebook.. I got emotional.. I dun feel like talking to anyone who knows about his existence before anymore as it just felt like they are only more interested in mi and him... No one seems to understand the meaning of "we are just friends"..

I will try, ok.. I will sort out my feelings and see where does he really stand in my heart.. I hope it won't take long, but please give mi time and space to breathe...

A name for my future her

With this job at Siemens, I got to know quite a few colleagues hailing from Europe and some has nice unique names, or rather names that were not so common among the locals here which trends each season..

And, as such I had decided on the name for my future princess if the day comes..

= Tatiana (tah-tee-arh-nah), she shall be named and can be referred to as "Tata" for short

A quick check on the web show that it originated from Slovakia and meant Fairy Queen.. Indeed, it suits the Tatiana I now know.. :) And my future daughter shall be same as well..

曖昧

曖昧是　比好朋友再親一點　但比情人遠一點
曖昧是　有進一步的衝動　卻沒有進一步的勇氣
曖昧是　他不是你的情人　但似乎他比情人更瞭解你
曖昧是　雖然他不是你的情人　但他對你十分重要
曖昧是　會叫你蓋好被子　早點睡的普通朋友
曖昧是　甜蜜蜜又酸溜溜的　往往從未開始就讓人患得患失
曖昧是　別人以為你們在搞地下情　你會沾沾自喜
曖昧是　別人問你們是否戀愛中　你張口結舌
曖昧是　見到他你會心跳加速　見不到他時你會掛念他
曖昧是　兩個人都會互相猜想　我是不是自作多情？
曖昧是　你很想多走一步　但又怕會嚇跑他
曖昧是　兩個人沒有承諾過什麼　卻願意付出不求回報
曖昧是　写到這裡　心裡想到的　那個人

请珍惜这种女孩

Read this off the Weibo yesterday.. and I felt it seems to be describing mi! Hahaha!!! 【请珍惜这种女孩】她其实有点懒，喜欢赖床。她其实不太乖，喜欢捣蛋。 她在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑。 她也会偶尔的忧郁， 朋友问她怎么了， 她也只会说没事。 其实她只是感觉累了，她只是需要一个拥抱。

Us

People has been concern. People has been curious. Questions faced recently. "Are u seeing someone?" - No "Are u dating that guy whom u went Taiwan with?" - No "He seems like a nice guy, any chance?" - Dunno, maybe? We are just two good frenz who can click n hang out comfortably together. What happens in future no one knows..

我是刺猬

就这样,我们越走越靠近。。 也更了解彼此。。 那几天, 谢谢你的陪伴,贴心和关心。。 我感受到了, 可是你忘了我们只是朋友。。 也应为这样, 我开始出现刺猬的心态。。 也因为这心态, 我不小心伤害了你。。对不起。

Insomnia...

2.08am - Dead tired but can't sleep.. Has been lying on my bed for the past two hrs, and Im still wide awake. :(

Having close my eyes.. Listening to soft music.. Counting sheeps, goats, cows, horses... Using the sleep spray.. Nothing seems to help..

惨了。。 又是一个失眠夜。。 

2012 Q1

Looking back, it's been a long time since I last did a write.. I don't mean the last which was posted like less than 24hrs ago.. But the last last which was done in Dec 2011..

New job since June 2011 has made me felt like I am now a married woman.. Married to Siemens because that's where I spent most of time, other than my own home.. Though my working hours are now longer than before during STTP days, I am nonetheless happier with the current situation.. Goodbye to micro-management team, and hello to "you're an adult and you manage your own time" culture.. This is where I should belong and probably explained why time seems to pass faster.. 好的事情，时间永远留不住。。

and it's now April 2012...

I still remember 1st Jan 2012 seeing fireworks display in Yishun and that's the first time I ever see it in person for an annual New Year celebration.. Same day, Florence delivered Rachael..

Then CNY in Feb, my first work trip to Bangkok.. It was nice to have the chance to catch up with Eaky, my "ex-bodyguard", afer leaving RELL. Getting to know more Thai friends through Siemens, plus forging a stronger friendship with Aksara whom our team nicknamed "Darlie girl" for her wide cheerful smile each time she passes by our department. I <3 Thais, and I mean it.. In this month of love, we also welcomed Ryan and Aubrey into this complicated world..

March was the most eventful, 2 weddings and 2 babies first month celebration.. managed to made it to all, except for Yvette's wedding which unfortunately I had to skip it due to health reasons.. And this is also the month where I think I made the most output in 30yrs of my life!! Sadly, 好的事情始终会有坏事跟随着.. I got news of my mentor in STTP collapsed due to heart attack and was in critical condition.. Everyday, everyone prayed for him.. And he miraculously woke up just when his family wanted to pull out the life support machine.. But days later, he passed on peacefully.. I wonder if this is what people referenced as 回光返照？To see his family one last time before he returns to God.. May he found peace..

April, I am finally going for a holiday in Taiwan.. How will it turn out, I'm not sure..

希望这次的心情之旅过后，我能转转运也能找到最终真正的人生目标！

因为不舒服, 所以睡不着。。 所以又开始写了。。

最近的我。。 肠胃不知发生了什么事。。 不是肚子疼,就是胀风。。好辛苦哦。。 现在半夜三更睡不着。。也就这样, 写了我今年的第一篇。。 短短的一篇。。 那几个字足以形容我现在的感受。。 希明天会更好。 雯